Friday, November 17, 2017

Photos from the Classroom: What’s Happening Here?



Photos from the Classroom: What’s Happening Here?
Annotation.

One of the biggest points of conflict when I am teaching a text is that I require annotations. Students tend to hate being required to annotate a text as they read. Our Director of Studies recently shared an article with the English Department about the purpose of reading a text as a class, for the purpose of learning. The article is High School Reading as an act of Meaningful Aggression.


Generally speaking, the 6th graders I teach are much easier to convince and persuade. They are still at an age where they completely trust adults, and they believe that everything I tell them is in their best interest. Teaching them to annotate, on a very simple level, comes with a little bit of uncertainty, but they come around rather quickly.


My 7th graders are the ones who push on me the most. They push back about most everything, but the topic of annotation is particularly triggering for them. Recently, I wrote this quote from the article I mentioned above on the board for my 7th graders:


I want my students to see reading … as something combative, vulgar, assertive—a constant back-and-forth between reading and rereading, moments of stepping outside the text then coming back and battering at it with questions. Something better done in a flak jacket than pajamas.


We talked about this quote, and the difference between reading book for fun, and reading a book for school. There is certainly a time and place to read in your pajamas. And, there is a time a place to use a text for something more, and that place is in the classroom.


7th grade is an interesting year where students start moving from learning to read to reading to learn. These annotations, and the act of annotating—reading, rereading, thinking, and asking/writing questions—contributes to this process.
Annotation is a skill that is new, and giving students direct instructions for what to annotate, especially in these early years, is important. I give mini-lessons on a particular skill—poetic sound devices, for example (we are reading Brown Girl Dreaming by Jacqueline Woodson, which is written in verse). Then, I assign a section of reading in the book and require students to annotate the particular sound devices they find. In the discussion of the text in the following class, we will interrogate the why behind the use of sound devices.


As we move through the text, I will require them to go from just finding and labeling these devices, to writing a question or a deeper meaning in the margins of the page next to the passage.


The discussion comes from their annotations. I might have them get into small groups, compare annotations, and come up with discussion questions about how the sound devices create images, and how that impacts our experience of the text, for example.


This act of comparing annotations also has students see the text through other eyes. It gives them new perspective.


Additionally, annotations they write may later provide more ease for finding evidence for arguments in discussion and writing.

Finding meaning in what we read and learning how to responsible talk about it is one of the skills we teach throughout the years in English and Language Arts. The hope is that through the years, annotating a text to interrogate it will become second nature.

Friday, November 3, 2017

I am an introvert, & books that changed my teaching

I hate busy, and I am an introvert.
At Headwaters, as with many other school, October is quite busy. And now, here I am—4 weeks since my last post—getting to sit down, take it all in, and reflect a little.


I hate when people complain about being busy, because we are all busy. At the beginning of this week, I got a little overwhelmed with work. I may have even complained a little about being busy.
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And now I pause after a frantic month. I feel sad that I have not taken the time to reflect over the last few weeks, especially because of how full they were. I know how important it is. I have not reflected about my teaching or leadership practices. I have not been following through with all of my commitments. I have been overwhelmed. But, today is a new day. I am caught up, and I am ready to think and reflect.


This week, I was challenged to reflect about some texts that have influenced my teaching practice over the years. The first one that comes to mind is Quiet by Susan Cain.


I am not sure if it was the timing of when I read this book, or the content of it, or a little of both. But this was the one of the first memories I have of truly grasping how different each of my students is. Each has different learning needs, and different human needs.


This particular text is about introverts living in an extrovert-led world. This book impacted me on a personal level, too. Before I read this book, I had been an introvert posing as an extrovert. It was reading this, and identifying with other people like me, that I realized...I am an introvert.
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I never allowed myself to identify as an introvert because I didn’t feel like it was socially acceptable to do so. Additionally, no one had ever talked to me about it before. I thought everyone was an extrovert, and I was just weird.


In identifying myself as an introvert, I then developed more space for the children in my classroom who identify that way, too—even if they didn’t do so outwardly (as most introverts wouldn’t).


Historically, participation grades had been something I thought to be insanely important. My thinking was that if you didn’t speak up in class, you were not participating. And if you were not actively participating through speaking, you weren’t contributing.


I now realize how completely wrong that is, and I teach accordingly.


Here are the two biggest shifts I made as a result of these discoveries.
  1. I need alone time, and I make time for it. No exceptions. Luckily, I married an introvert, and we both respect our heavy need for alone time. Though it is very hard to come by, we both wake up early in the morning to get it.
  2. Students do not need to speak up in class discussions to participate. I give many different opportunities to participate. Independent thinking time and partner or small group sharing always happen before a larger class discussion. Also, my questioning techniques have changed dramatically. I allow more wait time, and raised hands mean almost nothing in my classroom. People still raise their hands, but I deliberately try to call on each of the students in the room equally.


I not only allow space for the introverted student, I honor it, and often praise it.


In terms of more ways for how to get all students to participate without just speaking up, I use Total Participate Techniques. Years ago, we had a staff development workshop centered around this text, and it was incredibly useful. There are many different techniques: some familiar to most teacher, many are not. One of my favorites is a Board Splash.


This realization around introverted-ness impacts how I relate to each of need of each student. Everyone learns differently, and each student might need a different technique for how to express that learning.


Beyond the Introvert


I am know around my school for being strict, but I bend the rules more than most people think. Learning differences and accommodations are not something else for teachers to do, they just give us more tools for how to provide tools for learning, and to assess the knowledge we want our students to know.


Introvertedness, Extrovertedness, Fast-Reader, Slow-reader, Good Speller, Bad Speller, Dyslexic, Dysgraphic. None of these need to exist as labels. What comes along with these “labels” are tools for teachers and learners. They provide more avenues for us to understand one another.

Friday, October 6, 2017

The ‘Mental Load’ & Momming Hard

I remember, shortly after I had my son, I completely missed an email from a parent of one of my students. Over a week later, she reached out. I was totally mortified. I NEVER miss emails. Ever.
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After apologizing profusely, she replied with an understanding response, which said,

“Some of what you have lost will never return.” 
WKR if you’re reading this, it was you :)

I recently read this article about the mental load for working mothers, and it really impacted me. I am still new—1.5 years in—to this full-time-working-momming thing. I work full time, and I mom full time. Two full time jobs? That’s right. I am not the only one.

Luckily, in this day in age, the average dad is taking on a much heavier load in terms of household duties. And quite honestly, my partner is a super-dad. We split child care and home care duties. He is as hands-on as it gets.

Still, my ‘mental load’ now that I have a child is, simply put, out of control. Because of the things I am tracking in my day-to-day life, my brain constantly feels like scrambled eggs. My ability to focus on one thing at a time is a thing of the past.
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According to the article I mentions, women generally feel more of a burden from this mental load: work email, personal email. dishes, making lunches, the student I am worried about, potty training, dinner, giving the dogs their meds, meal planning, spending time with friends, exercise, that meeting tomorrow, planning a date night, saving for college, … and the list goes on and on.

This stuff in my head is always moving. I cannot turn in off.

Beyond the fact that it is not an option financially for one of the parents in my household to work less, as most of you who have started following my blog know, my career is important to me. I have worked incredibly hard to get to where I am in my work, and besides just that, I enjoy the work I do. Spending my days with middle schoolers brings me great joy.

I was fortunate to be able to take a generous (by American standards) 14-week maternity leave—some paid, some not. I really struggled during that time. I had/have postpartum anxiety (which I will save the details about for another blog), and that certainly contributed to my struggles. But mostly I missed my work. My work validates me. It doesn’t validate me to you, it validates me to me.

I am, and will always be, a full-time working mom.

So how do I make it all work? Here are some of the ways I stay sane:
  1. Exercise. I exercise at least 6, sometimes 7 days per week. I make time for this by waking up at 5am. On the few days I don’t exercise, my mental state is noticeably less stable.
  2. Meal Plan. This is one of my best mom-skills. Every Saturday or Sunday (depending on our social schedule), I meal plan, grocery shop, and prepare lunches for the week. I spend about 2-3 hours on the weekends preparing the food for the week ahead. It ensures that my entire family eat healthy meals, and it saves a ton of time and money during our crazy week days.
  3. Sleep. Most of the hard work I put in during my days is to ensure that I can sleep at least 8 hours/night. I am one of those people who really needs at (as much as I have tried to fight this over the years). I am in bed by 9pm (or earlier) most nights.
  4. Work at work, be home at home. I am present. When I am at work, I work. When I am at home, I am at home with myself and my family. I rarely let one thing bleed into the other.

Having a steady, regular schedule helps with mom brain. When the scrambled egg soup and anxiety start to take over, I turn to my routine. Mom brain and mental load are real, and they are here to stay. Acknowledging and talking about it will give all of use more tools for how to manage it all.  

Friday, September 29, 2017

I hate homework.


I hate homework.


Much like the average 6th and 7th grader, I hate homework. I hate doing it, and I hate giving it. In a perfect work, my students would never have it, and neither would I.


Our world isn’t perfect.


Why do I hate homework?
Our students are in school from 8:30am-4:00pm. At Headwaters, our Middle School students are in Activities (non-academic: PE, Music, Sports). And, that is still a long day. If our students leave school directly after dismissal, they probably get home somewhere between 4:30-5:15, depending on travel distance and traffic. After they take a break, get a snack, and have some time for free play—which I strongly advocate for—it is 6:00pm. Then, it is time for dinner. And downtime, then a shower (hopefully). Then, let’s call it 7:30pm. Then it is time to start homework. This isn’t even counting the students who have after school activities, like swim team, dance, sports, etc., which many of our students do.


Kids need sleep. While many of our students are staying up too late, many aren’t. An 8:30pm bedtime is absolutely not out of the question for a lot of our students (even though they usually won’t admit it, because that’s not cool!), especially for the most physically active ones, who also happen to be the busiest after school. If they even have 30 minutes of homework, that early—and necessary—bedtime becomes impossible to accomplish.


Kids also need time to play freely, spend time with family, and do what makes them happy. We cannot expose them to all of life’s possibilities in school. They need free time to explore on their own.


I still assign homework. But…
I really try my hardest to give ample time to complete assignments in class. All of the homework I give falls within the following categories:
  • Finish an in-class assignment. I always poll the class. If more than half has over 20 minutes of work left, I move it to the next class for in-class work time. There are 2 nights before our next class meeting, so I figure 20 minutes over 2 nights is fair.
  • Study for an upcoming assessment. The only test-y kind of assessments I give are on vocab./root words, and we have practiced the words for weeks in class before the assessment.
  • Read. I expect my kids to read nightly, and they can read whatever they want.


“When I was in school, I had homework…”
One of the most dangerous things we say as teachers starts with the phrase, “When I was in school…”


I hated (most) of school. I was a terrible student, and a complete pain for most of my teachers to have in class—If you’re reading this, I am sorry. I am not teaching now to put the students through much of the misery I experienced. I am here to inspire learning, and I want my students to enjoy coming to school and my classes. I also want to enjoy teaching them.


Furthermore, I want to live in a society where working too hard and too much is not cool. Providing time for students to spend time with family, be freely active, and explore their passions is training for their futures—just as much as teaching them good writing skills is.

When they grow up, I want them to continue to value free time, so maybe they will start a business like the school they once attended—where we value work, family, friends, and free time to explore what life has to offer beyond the walls of this school.

I have SO many other reasons about why I hate homework, but I'll leave it at this for now. To be continued...

Monday, September 25, 2017

Centering & Mindfulness

Why (and how) I practice mindfulness.


Like all of us, my life is busy. Luckily, because of where I work, mindfulness is something always at the forefront of my mind. But, I also know—and feel—when I am at my busiest, centering and mindfulness are things I let go of.


When I get overwhelmed, I have a tendency to disengage from feeling. I don’t stop doing. In fact, I might even appear to be doing more: working more and harder, attending more social events, sleeping less. But, even though I appear to be doing more, I am engaged less and less. I am not present.


I have learned over that years that presence is what makes a full and happy life. I have also learned that not being present is very easy to do. And, I have learned that being present isn’t hard, but it does take practice.


My workplace requires that I lead my classes in a short centering/mindfulness exercise at the start of every meeting. I also use this time to center myself. I focus only on my body and my breathing—in that moment. While I am coaching the students on the practice of mindfulness, I model it.


I carry this practice into my life beyond school. I wake up most mornings before the sun rises so I can get in a good workout. I have an exercise space in my garage (I’ll blog about this space and routine another day…). I mention this space because it is a place where I can get away. And, I find I am the most able to practice centering and mindfulness after a good sweat, and away from the inside distractions of my family. After whatever I have done for exercise, I spend some time in stillness, Savasana (for any other yogis out there). I focus my breath, and the rise and fall of my belly and chest as I breathe in and out. Thoughts of the fast-approaching day enter, and I practice letting them go and being in this moment with myself.


This simple practice, of staying present with my body for a few minutes most mornings, has made a tremendous difference in my life and my teaching.


In my early years of teaching, I planned and did. In class, I was always thinking of what was next, or if and how a conversation I didn’t start or plan was pulling me/the class off schedule, and how I might get us back on track. I wasn’t listening to my students. I wasn’t hearing anything but myself and my own thoughts about what’s next?.


Listening is the most powerful tool we have as teachers. Being in the present moment, with no expectation or thought of what is coming next, allows us the freedom to listen.


Listening to students, and actually hearing what they are saying, has made my teaching fuller and easier.


Listening makes my life fuller and easier.


Practicing centering and mindfulness with myself on a regular basis makes it possible for me to listen to others. Imagine a day where you didn’t have the pressure of thinking about what you were going to do next, because all you had to do was listen. It is easy, but it does take practice.




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Friday, September 15, 2017

New Year. New Blog.

The Best and The Worst
So far.... 

This year brought many new and exciting challenges for me. I am teaching 6th graders again after a two year hiatus, and I have new roles in the community: I have taken a leadership role around Middle School Advisory, and I am the New Faculty Mentor for the new teachers on the River campus.


I took on these new roles because I was ready for it—I asked for more, and I am pleased to report these new roles have given me the elevated challenge I was craving. But, with these new challenges, I have been forced—on a daily basis—to evaluate my task list. I must triage, and I don’t leave every day feeling finished. I am feeling the demands of, once again,  making sure I have balance between my work and personal life. Leaving work by 4pm daily is incredibly important to me. It allows me to have precious time with my son in the afternoons. I am still, mostly, succeeding with this, and have left even earlier on a couple of occasions.


To say finding that balance has been my biggest challenge isn’t necessarily true, because my 6th graders certainly win that award. In my two years away from teaching them an actual core subject, I had forgotten exactly how slowly they move in these first few weeks of their middle school lives. I continuously over-plan classes, and I am spending lots of time re-doing/writing plans because things are not going as I thought they would. I am currently—already—not only 1-2 weeks behind, but nearly everything I planned for the past 4 week, I changed. Still, with all of these challenges, I have managed to experience some really awesome stuff!


Working with our new team of teachers has been incredibly rewarding. Being the listening ears for their first-few-week questions and debrief has been a treat. When I signed on to this role, I envisioned lots of systems setup (my personal fav.) and day-to-day practice feedback and support. However, I am finding that what new employees need the most is someone to listen to them, and my guess is that extends far beyond this workplace. There is so much more that goes into joining a new community than understanding course calendar practices and reassessment policies. Culture assimilation, and shock, are real. The excitement is raw. I am happy to be the support for these incredible teachers, and I hope their experience of the first few weeks went a little more smoothly because of the support, and the ears, I provided. I do plan to get real feedback from them about this, too.

All-in-all, it really has been a wonderful and exciting start to the year. The biggest highlight for me, though, is the people I work with and for—faculty, students, and parents. I get to work in a place where I am respected as a professional and a human, and where that feeling is mutual across the community. I feel fortunate to have found a place to work where I really see myself staying for my entire professional career, and where I will never run out of ways to grow and people supporting me to keep learning.

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